I’ve been tweaking this site for the whole year without really adding content on it. Ang arte ko lang. Anyway, you see, a blogosphere friend of mine used to tell me that when you blog, it should usually be 80% content, and 20% design. Although I follow that (a bit) on my other (anime) blog, looks like I’ve been utilizing the 100% here solely for design — plus I don’t know what to write. I’m tore on what to write.

I’ve been watching anime since high school and it’s been totally my hobby for the past — what? 8 years? Anime has been a part of me, and I don’t know if it would still be Ivan if there’s no anime in it — which is why, I’ve been keeping tabs only on my anime blog during the past years that this blog has been inactive. There would surely be an anime somewhere whenever I blog, and actually, if you’ll check out my editorial posts in that blog, you could actually count those as personal posts that could have been posted here instead. See now? Keeping this place somewhat became pointless b-bbut! Of course, there would still be a fraction of my life that doesn’t have the anime on it which is why I still tightly hold on to this.

For now, plans for the site (damn, how many times have I planned something for this site and yet I haven’t done anything?) would include writing entries to release some of my stress – primarily frustration – caused by job hunting (Yes, I’m still unemployed). If not, then “mono no aware” moments would do. You’d probably be able to read some plot bunnies of mine too, if ever the novelist in me kicks in!

Note: Please don’t bother to check my posts pre-2009. PLEASE.

Whoa. It was a very productive day. Look at the changes! I’ll be editing the old posts soon so that they’ll be in accordance to the new theme.

All these efforts of trying to revive this personal nest of mine is thanks to Ralph. I’m pretty much inspired to restart personal blogging thanks to him. I’m not really certain on what I’ll be posting here again in the future but… we’ll see~!

PS. I haven’t fixed yet the archives pages and I totally have to write an ABOUT page, haha!

PSS. Don’t dare to read my past entries unless you want to read bunch of grammatical errors. *bow*

I just felt like posting haha!

I don’t really feel like I’m already 18 hahaha. 18 years na pala ako sa mundo? Now that I think of it, I still want to do and explore lots of things. phew. Let’s do our best?

I’m thinking if I should still maintain this or simple transfer to LJ.

Ana, it’s my time to return the favor(?) — no, not really.

Hay, antagal na no? kung kailan man tayo huling nagkita. Aw, I miss high school. Napaka carefree natin. Nakasalampak lang tayo lagi sa sahig. We don’t care about anyone — We don’t really care about the things around us. Pero ngayong college, medyo nag-iba na ang ihip ng hangin, lagi na lang tayong conscious sa mga ginagawa natin, meron na ngayong mga constraint…

Hay Ana, banana. all we can do is to encourage one another so we can make it, kahit na mahirap, dapat kayanin. All I can say is that, whatever happens, nandito lang naman kami sa ligid ligid, always ready to support you.

Don’t worry, kahit na hindi tayo nagkakakita, nothing will change (yes, I really hope). Let’s just meet once all is finished. We will definitely savor that moment. Kailangan siyempre manlibre ka! Hahaha.

Alam mo, I don’t know why pero parang I don’t want to visit Munsci anymore kahit na nandun lahat halos ng mga memories ng high school natin. Everything has changed, haha, parang nagfade na yung mga bagay na makakapag remind sayo nung mga panahon na yun. Haha, napag-iiwanan na ba tayo ng panahon? I don’t know. Bakit, masama ba yun?

Sana lang, sa fast-paced nating mundo, hindi natin makalimutan na pahalagahan ang mga bagay na minsan na ta-take for granted natin. Minsan, maganda rin yung slow-paced.

Ana, take care always, ingatan mo ang iyong health. Ilang beses ka na nagkakasakit! Pray as always! I wish you all the best.

Let’s do this.

(p.s) hahaha debut mo na next year!

I don’t know why pero super restless ko these days. Bakit ba kasi napakadaming distractions sa mundo!? Lagi na lang ako natetempt na gumawa ng ibang bagay, at after that, hindi ko na namamalayan ang oras. Nakakabanas na kasi eh. Ilang beses ko na sinasabi sa sarili ko na dapat huminto na ako sa ganitong oras dahil may gagawin pa ako, pero lagi ko na lang isinasantabi. Naiinis na ako sa computer, sa internet, sa lahat, miski sa anime. Imbis na maasikaso ko ang school work ko, lagi na lang silang nag-iintervene.

Malala na to, naiinis na ako. Hindi naman ako ganito dati, kapag may sinulat akong gagawin, ginagawa ko talaga. Naku naman, time management na naman siguro. Sarili ko rin niloloko ko ng lagay kong to e… Therefore, I swear it, I’ll go hiatus again sa anime blog ko. Masyado na naman akong naabsorb sa escape route ko eh, mamaya mapabayaan ko na talaga ang lahat…
Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero, ang pumapasok sa isip ko these days ay magsulat ng nobela. Lol, napaka ambisyoso ko no! Nevermind, napapagod na nga ako mag-isip ng plot, at matinong setting eh, pero I won’t give up. One of these days, makakaisip din siguro ako ng aking ideal story to tell sa iba. Hahaha… Wahhh. bakit parang kung kailan na ako nagmamajor eh kung kelan pa ako parang nagkaka-change of heart / na-wowore out sa college…

Oh well. Ayoko na talaga mag procrastinate… as in… OO AS IN talaga kaya tama na tong entry na to.

I finally decided to settle with this new layout, much simpler and cleaner.

I don’t know pero parang hindi na ganoon na ka-active mag-isip yung mind ko about writing things about anime— pero when you think about it, medyo trashy kasi yung posts ko nun eh. probably hanggang ngayon naman, pero, siguro, magsusulat na lang ako ng entry from now on, kapag talagang may motivation at talagang alam ko yung gusto kong iparating sa readers. Nakakatanga nga yung iba kong posts dati eh, siguro during the previous year. Natatawa na lang ako kapag binabasa ko kasi parang wala naman “content” yung sinulat ko. Well, I hope during this past blogging years, I did improved my writing skills kahit na alam kong mali mali pa rin ang grammar at syntax ko.

Maybe I’ll stay here na naman nowadays. Nakakadepress yung subjects ko this term eh, Oo, majors na ako, at  medyo na-ooverwhelm lang naman ako, pero that’s all. Okay— Sige, bukas pasukan na naman, I hope everyone’s fine dahil sa bagyo.

Also, Facebook’s boring na rin for me. Isa lang ginagawa ko dun eh, mag mafia wars, pero even that napapabayaan ko na. Sira rin ang cellphone ko, actually the battery lang pero, Gipit talaga eh so ayaw ko magpabigat, kahit sa graduation na lang! hahahaha.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit my mind tends to wander these days? Dahil ba malapit na mag-Pasko? Never naman ako naging excited eh, medyo naloloko lang ako mag-isip kung anung ipopost ko sa Temporal Vortex during that period… Christmas and Anime huh, okay whatever comes into my mind.

Let’s just give it our best, —

Ayko na ring mag-english dito dahil nauubusan na ako dun sa anime blog ko. as in. kaya naman, muli akong magbabalik kapag hindi na ulit ako busy kahit summer! maraming nakatambak na rpg na dapat tapusin!

It’s always been the case for the students. If you have 10 pesos in your pocket and decided to pay it for your fare, of course you’ll expect 3 pesos in return since 7 pesos is the discounted fare for students (8 pesos for regular). Even if you shout “Estudyante po!” while your fare is being hand over to the driver, the driver would still pretend not to hear you and give you 2 pesos change. The brave enough youngsters would reckon immediately and shout back “Estudyant po yun!” so they’ll receive the additional 1 peso change.

My advice, always bring 7 peso sets of fare for tricycle and jeepneys. That’s your choice if you want it one 5 peso and two 1 peso or seven 1 pesos. This time, the drivers would immediately know that you are student and they’ll lose the chance to lure you to their trap, which is for you to hesitate to claim your additional change once they give you 2 pesos in return.

I’m not really sure if I’m happy right now or sad since many things had happened during these past months. It was a tiresome, kind of mind-wrecking but I think I should still thank Him that I made it. I actually found out that the day my mother got stroked was my lunar calendar birthday…A HELL VERY NICE gift isn’t. YES, I’m very depressed even though today is supposedly a great day for me… I suppose I can’t go back to the days where all things are normal… I’m still grateful that my mother just suffered mild one but it still caused a scratch in my mind… My days are filled of worriness thinking how I could prevent the second attack. I even worry now what dish should be served in the table when last time I was just only going on kitchen to grab my share. I also only have one last semester to go before my education fund runs out, that is if my brother doesn’t find a decent high paying job before that. Too much trouble eh? It totally ruined my schedules and habits.

*sigh* I just can’t help it but feel depressed. I hope everything could go back to when it wasn’t still like this. Regrets eh? Sure it isn’t like me… I just hope that we would all still be together all the way through all the troubles.